joces

i must say ALL THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON
if the enlightment of it all points towards seeking God first, then what happened was for a cause,
a good one too.

i have wonderful friends ;D

God does what we cannot do so we can be what we dare not dream: perfect before God.

i cant understand guys (a plural to that)
neither do i want to understand them.


why am i no longer excited............

why do i make it so difficult, so complicating.

it's simply your undying love

bleh,not again..

yea,same topic.

i should really get clear my rationale and objectives regarding.....,drilled them in mind.
since that's the reason i joined,
that will remain the only reason i join.

every decision comes with a sacrifice.
just joces, what are you willing to sacrifice?
;D
(i think this is intelligent i will paste it on my wall)

this is puzzling to me actually,
all of a sudden i hardly have assignments,essays or whatsoever to rush.
awells, so i have been camping at facebook, and sleeping more than what health experts say i need,
till i oversleep and feel tired the whole of yesterday.

well 3 more hours before my only lecture of the day followed by care group then camping in NTU to study,yes i do still have stuff to complete,
1) My final theory test (gosh it's 120 pages i m at 12 hee)
2) This simple project due on friday (i have time to email my teacher to ask her simple questions)

now the narration of my event-FULL days.it's really a stark contrast to now..(I M SO GLAD!)
so friday i woke up late as usual went pepper lunching and then off to zihao's hse to play twister and rushing off at 4 plus for MY VERY FIRST NET OUTREACH! SUSHI MAKING!
believe me i can make nice sushi,well the tasty part is not for me to claim credits it was kim's maid who prepared all the ingredients.but now i m so determined to make sushi from scratch all by myself and lengthening my list-of-things-joces-can-cook (other than ONLY potato salad) really appreciated olivia and ben'ten rushing over though they were delayed initially and HI CHIYANG (mayb you are reading this) YOU ARE FUN!hahaha..and it's especially funny to see him mock kim! i really thought everything smoothly and really thank god for bringing the three little ones daniel, michelle and lorraine. suddenly my net is TADAH really BIG. ;D

my next morning was miraculous.i was on time to catch arten's kangoo to airport to send gladys off.and then off to handbilling. while doing handbilling with jon, i was uttering to him how unexpectedly i was there at that moment. firstly i really have no habit of sending people off (this is perhaps the second one apart from sending manda lover off and one would easily assume me not to help out with handbilling.
so after edge i went home to rush my assignment though i suppose lots think i was going back to catch some rest. IT TOOK LONGER THAN EXPECTED! i reached vivo like one or two hrs later than the time i was supposed to. it was raining we went to catch a movie which i thought did not do any justice to my 8 dollars, he's just not that into you! (yah asmond we significantly have difference taste i read your blog oops, i liked alex and gigi ALOT though, but tt's all) and we arrived in tanjong beach at 3am. and it was surf and sweat event the next day i was at the registration booth and slacked off alot! all was so fun except the part where we were stranded in the rain.groans. 

AND DO THE STORES SELL PILLS FOR BETTER MEMORY? ''hi jocelyn, remember me?'' and followed which i could only give my guilty face. 

ok now to proceed to pg 13 of THE OFFICIAL HANDBOOK,to prepare students for the final driving test!  

i made one decision today.
how many more to go, GROANS.
every situation wants a decision
i detest really having to make one,
not because of the decision i know i will stand for,
but for the one i have to let it go.
i always wish for the world to be understanding.
yet no,

for i am not made of the world.

remember me.

voices that scare i hear many times a week,
yet i went ahead,
now i know what had this become a cause.

staring at my laptop screen, dazed for a while, but many times.
i m left with 100 odd words.
no concentration to finish this up,

ignoring the stagnant orange light,so familar.

 

yupp,it's dearest bi ee's 21st!her party made me want one for my birthday and it made me consider having a party of my own to celebrate the BIG 2! just that i sort of felt claustrophobic/very uncomfortable in the carriage on the train back on our journey to the west from tampines!

i was dreaming of my own party, yes!! with pretty balloons definitely and a banner that says HAPPY BIRTHDAY. and since i like sweet stuff so much, why not a dessert party, with cakes (not chocolate defintely), ice cream (yucks no chocolate flavour), choco fondue and marshmellows, HEAVENLY! at that moment it was all about me myself and my utopian world full of fun and more fun and more desserts...

kim told me the net arrangements are out! (oh that's fast) well i should have expected it. actually i have not expected it since last week, recalling how baffled i ended up, with full of questions in my mind, that i knew where to find the answer yet still wanted to brood over them. now they dont matter really, in fact i am excited and excited that kim is excited. when talking about the net outreach every month, THEN, i just knew what we could do-DESSERT PARTY! ermm yah there goes my plans for my 20th birthday party. but like what i realised last week, nothing beats doing God stuff for the joy welled up at the end of it supercedes else.

my week.things seem to be beyond what i can ever manage.i m not pointing to the convenient/overused escape route of (errr God i think you chose the wrong person)

no one imagined Jesus could rise up from the dead by the power of God after 3 days.i believe in His resurrection.

too long ago since i last blogged.2 words can sum up the last 2 weeks i guess,
'TIRED' and 'BUSY'

and of course the preceding question will be WITH WHAT?
SOME(not all sadly) of my energy to what i want to do since the beginning of the year and the REST of my energy i vaguely suggest they may have been drained by blowing out the seemingly-endless-phlegm STUCK in my lungs and definitely portions to datelines that are to be met(yes joces please be reminded you have one more 5m tall stage backdrop to design) i need to sought God for inspirations as usual,my best.

i want to blog today a happy night in haji lane.

also perhaps one of the longest time that i said what i wanted to say.
saying what i believe in.

;D